it's official...

...I'm going crazy. I took George in to the Dr. and yes, he does, in fact have the flu.
I still feel stinky, and Izzy isn't 100%... of course, that didn't stop me from sending her to school for a half day...poor thing. But really, she's on Tamiflu and Zythromax, so she won't be spreading anything around. And to top everything off, I have not been the nicest mama to my poor son:
He came running to me on the couch (I was napping) and knee'd me in the stomach...I cried, then I whisper yelled...you mom's know what I mean, when you're so past it, you know you will say horrible things...so you whisper. Poor boy, he was just coming to kiss me. In fact, about 20 minutes later, this sick, sweet 4 yearold came up to me and said, "sorry mama, for hurting your tummy, I love you"
....why don't you knife me in the heart already!!!

So now, not only do I feel physically sick, I'm emotionally drained as well. WILL I EVER GET THIS RIGHT??? I am again, in need of grace...healing, forgiving, undeserved grace. I'm reminded of an hymn we used to sing in the church I grew up in...

"Marvelous grace of our loving Lord,

Grace that exceeds our sin and our guilt;

Yonder on Calvary's mount out-poured,

There where the blood of the Lamb was spilt.

chours:

Grace, grace, God's grace,

Grace that will pardon and cleanse within;

Grace, grace, God's grace,

Grace that is greater than all our sin."

Well, I'm off to put my babies to bed, and ask for forgiveness...

by His Grace....